excuses

sorry people...
im very busy socializing. i have no time to update my own blog.
im very busy to push myself doing the assignment(s) (i havent move an inch). i have no time to stalk other people blogs'.
im very much busy to rebuild myself back. i have no time to mind other people businesses (ok. scratch that part because i lied)
im very much hoping that this one person is finally realize that I AM EXIST. i have no time in focusing ONLY to myself (deym u)

i need to slap my own face.
or anyone??

tak tipu, tak boleh

saya tak tipu. saya memang rindu dia. even sekarang ada orang try cucuk jarum. tapi saya tak boleh. saya masih rindukan dia. tolong. sapa2. pergi jauh2 dari saya. sebab saya tak boleh.


aiseh. lagu2 kat radio ni tak membantu langsung lah..!

malas

oho. i really2 hate that word right now. because that is what i am.
malas nak siap kan keje. malas nak prepare presentation (haih. kejap lagi ni presentation nye!)
malas tu malas ni. emm makan pun tak berapa nak lalu (me? not eating? what the...)
nak update blog ni pun malas juga.
yang rajin nye ape?
read a story book currently borrow it from my friend.
its very good that makes me just want to curl under my comfort blanket and berhibernasi untuk seminggu lagi
currently im in the mood of enjoying my single life.
sebab tula jadi malas kot.
aduh. need to stop this stupid behavior or else..

xoxo

mood macam2

sekarang masih lagi dalam mood porak peranda.
nak ke tak nak...nak ke tak nak...tu je dalam otak ni.
semak betul. emm..memang padan la muka.
tak pandai lagi nak wat keputusan yang mementingkan diri sendiri.
rase2 nye akan buat juga lepas ni setelah beberapa abad terseksa
(ini mengikut kata2 kawan saya)....sebab diri sendiri yang tak nak mengaku dan mengambil langkah drastik untuk keutamaan diri sendiri.
ini kalau dah kawin n kena seksa dgn laki sendiri akan berkemungkinan menjadi wanita2 yang tak nak melepaskan diri sendiri dari semua itu.
aduh. parah ni.

emm mood lain.
sgt hepi setakat ni bile da stat belajar balik.
lagi2 clas LE 4500 (English course)..hihi sgt best lecturer nye.
x sia2 melepaskan lec fav lagi satu untuk amik section yang ni.
n...yang lain2 pun best juga.
even ade lec yang ciap bawak resit compound dalam class.
aiseh...strict sungguh.
huhu...ape nak wat. its his class. (oppsss...did i just say 'he')...hahaha

ok lah. nanti bila da decide betul2 keputusan yang patut diambil akan ada la entry tersebut.
just wait k....lots of things to reconsider.

xoxo

.a perfect boyfriend.

i am strongly believe in patience is part of our iman. God already created a path for us. created a scene for us to be strong and not to forget Him. i AM strongly believe in this kind of situation. actually lately, my bf and i always clash in our mutual agreement. it is all about him being so selfish and stingy while me being so childish and not so understanding gf.

i wish i can be more patient

i wish i can be more understanding

i wish i can be a perfect gf

but NO. i cant. i wont. i dont.
because i am not near to the perfection.

i didnt have a fairytale love story. i wish i have but no...i am no longer believe in fairytale. its all crap for me. a perfect bf does come with a perfect price. thats what i do believe. i dont know if u guys believe that but i dont care.
i cry a lot because of my stupid love story. i am not strong enough to end all of this. i do love him no matter what he did to me. once again..what a pathetic i have become.

Dear God...can you please gave me a perfect bf already??

nah...it will be way tooooo easy dont you think?? (ahaa)


xoxo

semangat study

pagi tadi start class. first class for this semester actually sebab semalam still lagi huru-hara. perasaan? excited, berkobar2, semangat dan macam2 lagi. biasela baru start kan. but hopefully this feeling will last until the end of this final semester.

emm bila dah mula belajar ni rase macam rindu sangat kat uia ni. last sunday bila first masuk main gate tu x rasa ape pun...cume penat drive 2 n half hours. ciap hampir nak accident lak tu. hari ni je baru terase rindu when almost 3months x datang uia (kinda).

yep. last sem bile dengar ramai kawan2 yang dah abes study and already get a job sejujurnye saya rasa sangat jeles. tapi sem ni bila dapat perabot baru, wireless pun seems okay la kat bilik ni (cross my fingers and toes), dah mula belajar balik, pastu ciap dapat buku free kuliyyah bagi (yeah, i am very much likes the freebies..hehe). well, i think i should stop thinking about what a luckiest thing that other people can get instead of me. besides, dr. roziena...my eop lecturer did ask us about what are we planning to do after graduating. yep..many answers from us. but she did mention that we should take a break first. weighing our options. getting marry pun di kira option tau...hehe

emm i believe in rezki ade di mane2. cuma benda tu kene dicari la. if not, x dapat la kan. but like it or not, i have to find a job asap. i mean super asap. i am sick of asking money from my mom and doing nothing. plus, i would like to have my own money so that when i wanna get engaged or etc it should be no problem in buying things. (yeah. thats the true purpose).
hihi

well
lets just see wheres my luck will lead me to. shall we?


xoxo

update

back to iium.
it feels great.superb. but i miss my mom so damn much.
yep. im a mommy's and you have no right to laugh at it (ahaa)

well, as u may not know, my room was full with the new-purpleish kind of furniture and i am sooooo loving it!
the table get longer, the locker has many rooms and it was the 1st time in my life i didnt know what stuffs should i put into it.
and it has a secret locker inside it that is suitable for my valuable-expensive kind of stuffs.
Dear God...i am so grateful for this. Thank You.
yeay for that!

ok.
last friday. my teeth were free from the braces (or me)
yep. there was no fun about that. no more colorful thingy in my teeth.
it was a crucial process plus now i think that scaling is much more worse than getting your tooth off (correct me if im using a wrong term).
i tell you. it was a nightmare! huhu
and i kinda miss my braces. it was the only thing that i like about my face (i am lying)
though, i will not see it again. but i still have to wear the retainer to make my teeth still and stay.
luckily, it can be take off as it is removable unlike the braces.

and i heard that wearing the braces make your face changed even better.
i dont know. but until now my mommy's friends said that i am getting cuter (not my body but my face okay. and i am confident about that okay)

i love my life. full stop.

xoxo