Tuesday, December 28, 2010

new year

good bye 2010 and helloooo 2011...
3 more days people...3 more days we are heading out to a brand new year
every single day will be our new and kinda last day for us.
what a bless year for me.
well i can say that 2010 was a really-really good year for me.
here are the reasons why::

--finished my degree
--get a job
--break up with my 3 years boyfriended
--getting to know someone and finally be my new sweetheart =))
--get rid of some friends who keep giving me this kind of pain in the...ehmm2
--get new best friend(s)
so on and so forth..

well...if you ask me about my new resolutions. they have to be these::

-contribute something to my mom. something here means money off course...or anything else
-have a better relationship with God
-improve my performance at work
-i have to make sure no more pain in my love-hate relationship. maybe get engaged..perhaps! haha but definitely not married...yet (gosh...if U were reading this. just ignore it okay!)
-lose some weight for my convo...urgh...again and again huh?
-be healthy and safe throughout the year

that will be all...for now

xoxoxo



Friday, December 24, 2010

update2

im as busy as a bee.
uhuh...already 2 weeks working in my new and first ever working place.
lots a, tans a, many2 works to do.
this is why i like to work with the private sector first.
okay...no heart feeling for those who work at the gov.
it just that talking from my experience...most of the 8 hours working time...only 4/5/6 of them i did actually really working while in the gov.
haha...i dont know. maybe it was just me who did that.
ehmm2 quick update:

-already received a superb news. he mentioned his feeling out loud. me off course did it too...=))

-im trying to adjust my new life. lot of things to discover and consider. especially trying to keep myself motivated in each and every single day. one solution if you ask me???
----try to cuci mata or enjoying the 'view' in the early morning. either in the train, bus, lift, food court or etc...hehehe its really refreshing!!

-ohoooooi...soon enough my lemak will kill me. duh...im trying to eat less at noon and doing whatever diet you called them. but i cant help eating when it comes to night. so how eh??

-i am so fortunate to have colleagues that are super cool n nice. for the time being la...i dont know in the future. or maybe it was just me who feels that way. emm speak of the devil.

-currently im trying to learn how to pick up the office calls correctly. duh...sape la yang invented telefon mcm ni. for a human who was not a technology savvy like me..its kinda hard dowh. @_@


xoxoxo

Friday, December 3, 2010

so so...

my heart is blooming like a million roses in the forbidden space

sounds poetic so so...but this is what i really am feel right now
despite the posts in the FB by my friends who keep reminding me about the final exam result that will be out this coming Monday...
i may pass or may not...either one i have to accept it rite??
been praying hard for the pass few months for God to pass me even if it was not with a flying color

thanks to God i have something to distract me from thinking about that too often
(naaah im totally lying!)
either way...being in love surely does make me more closer to Him.


xoxoxoxo

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

ok ape...

da pegi 4 interviews kerja
yang dua tak dapat sebab time tu tak study lagi language betul2
nak make sure flawless and no grammar mistakes time write something
last2 tulis tah ape benda
yang lagi satu ni tak dapat juga sebab tak de basic politic katenye
sebab tak baca malaysian insider, malaysia kini dan sewaktu dengan nya
yelah. aku memang tak terpikir nak baca web-web yang begitu
selama ni baca NST, the Star
ok ape..dari aku baca Utusan
alah..dah memang tak de rezeki kan
bacalah ape pun...kalau dah tak tersurat itu kerja aku
memang tak kan dapat lah
oh2 ada lagi satu nak tunggu
tapi pun rase macam tak dapat
bukan pikir negatif
tapi slalu hint-hint yang hati bagi tak kan menipu kan?

stress oooiiii

kalau nak tengok muka orang tengah stress tengok la muka aku
ye. sekarang tengah dalam musim mencari keja
aka musim berkobar-kobar semangat nak keja
tapi tak de rezeki lagi
alahai pencari penganggur yang setia
sila lah tengok muka kesian aku ni dan ambil aku menjadi pekerja kamu
hahaha
desperate sungguh
almaklumlah...aku bukan jenis yang suka duduk-duduk saja tanpa ada kerja yang nak dibuat
janji...sape-sape yang ambil aku bekerja mesti untung
sebab aku memang gila bekerja
sebab aku tak suka ponteng-ponteng kerja ni
tak caya sila tanya tempat aku praktikal hari tu
sehari pun tak penah ponteng
dah la memang tak dapat elaun
hah
tak ke employee of the month gitu

just a reminder...please

if you are a full time woman or only a half time woman
as long as you still have the things which make you a woman
either one...you still have to take charge of your own life

this is as the result of having to read so many news directing our attention towards the issue of the woman being kicked, stabbed, cheated and only God knows what more by the man
nothing feminist, emotional here but lets face it people
its on the news and sure its a fact

I spent one week in KL and just came back from there
get to spend more than 6hours of driving from banting to uia to bukit jalil then back to hometown with my mom
we did a really an eye opener discussion...okay sort of

its about a thing that we never imagine can happen to a woman particularly
its about a woman will always be the victim of the most crucial thing that a man can do
its about a woman should really2 be intelligent for the kids and own sake
its about 'jodoh itu Allah yang tentukan' whether we like it or not

and the most interesting part was...
its about my own life
what should I do after this
when should I further my study
who is my boyfriend for the time being
(okay...I already made this one promise that i should never get married until she retired
and thatttt should give me one year of being a single woman...hehehe
but plus2 if i didnt yet find my soul mate)

emm2...

calling for all women out there....just dont make yourself as the punch bag for those jerks
you deserve much better than that..


xoxoxo

Thursday, November 25, 2010

interviews

how often did u update ur blog?
oho...one of the questions been asked by the interviewer.
i said twice a week...is it true?
well recently...i guess so.
had faced 2 times interview sessions with different companies sure did give me a bunch of new experiences.
what should i do right now is only keep praying for the help of Allah to get one or maybe both of the jobs..
i dont know...at the end of the day...it depends on my luck and rezeki...kan..

xoxoxoxo

Saturday, November 20, 2010

manners

seriously people....we should really learn manners lah nowadays...
how many times have i encountered people who doesnt know how to be courteous with others

who is speaking on the phone while driving...
who is smoking at the zone of 'no smoking'...hello people...are you blind or just simply stupid enough to ignore it??
who is answering phone with the i'm-the-boss-who-is-always-correct attitude...duh this one is surely annoyed me most
who doesnt know how to shut-the-fcuk-up when seeing me gaining my weight....urgh...mentaliti orang zaman sekarang...
and many more...

yeah. i guess we should learn how to deal with those kind of species instead...aite??

Friday, November 19, 2010

once again...how to spell L.O.V.E

I am in love...

thank you...Allah for You are always by my side and answering all my prayers
thank you...whoever you are for sometimes does making my day
thank you...whoever you are for always praying for my luck to finally begin
thank you...whoever you are for making me as your absolute stalker
@_@


xoxoxoxo

do(s) and dont(s)

after surviving do(s) and dont(s) in IIUM...it was finally my graduation moment.
na ah...it was kinda late to mention it here but i had been through super-hectic-day with my lovely friends and love one creating our precious memories before we pursue our own journey...

really2 hope to get a job super fast and currently i AM scrabbling, dwelling, remembering, practicing and bla...bla...bla...my grammar skill so that i will past a test (more to a job test) next week...

please pray for my success to get this job because for me it was one of the jobs that will make me not to forget my duty as a servant plus....well i already get used to it in IIUM and i was really2 like praying that this comfort zone will not absolutely vanished when i get started to work...
so u get what i mean right? em2...hope so

naaaah...i will not spell it out until it was being confirmed 100% i get it...so just wait okay...=)

Sunday, October 31, 2010

pep talk

despite me being surrounded by people who keep giving you this kind of pain in the ass.
i am happy to announce that my life is getting better and better.
everything started to settle down and some kind of helping you in a way that i can never imagine.
thank you Allah for not letting me off by your side.
in order to not really dwell into the most crucial and bad thing that certain people can do to you.
you have to like think over all the good thing indeed.
many things that can we hold on to.
for me??
well i can say those are....
-my unique love life.
-my precious family.
-my beautiful-variety circle of friends.

i am pretty sure you have your own too.
hold on to it babe.
there is nothing will ever compared to them.


xoxoxo

Monday, October 18, 2010

alololololo~~

alah. lame x update blog ni kan kan kan....
huhu
klu blog ni bf sy..da kena tgl dah...
klu blog ni suami sy...confirm da kena cerai dah...

it just that...
to many things to handle
since this is my last semester in uia...cross my fingers!
and many things happened smpai x tau mane satu nak update dulu

one thing for sure..
i still love u my blog...
@_@

1st thing 1st
hari tu accident
time2 raya...sibuk nak gi open house orang
huh...one of raya days yang i will never forget...eva!

2nd thing 2nd
da decide nak make my love life change a little bit
ha yang ni x leh nak bg tau lebih2
dah confirm nanti i will let you guys know ^_^

3rd thing 3rd
exam lagi 2 weeks
overwhelmed...sebb this will be my last freacking exams in uia
insya Allah....please pray for me okay

4th thing 4th
da dekat 30 applications on jobs
x de update or call for interview
kecewa?? mestilah...
but i know...God wants to show me something...
He prepares me on something else..
i believe in Him...
ade nanti ade lah kan...

emm....xde mood nak tulis panjang lebar bagai
my lack of interest to write got nothing to do with you
cuma mood for procastinate masih lagi bermaharajalela
ecewah!

xoxoxo







Wednesday, September 15, 2010

anything is everything

alamak. dah lama sangat biar blog ni bersarang. maaf eh my readers. sangat-sangat-sangat sibuk sekarang ni. dengan raya nya...lagi-lagi ada anak buah kat rumah sekarang ni. sangat sibuk melayan dia. ni baru seorang. manja nya melebih-lebih. yelah. im the only acik yang suka melayan dia....hihihi rasanya lum terlambat nak ucap selamat hari raya. nak minta maaf kalau-kalau my writing ada yang buat anda semua rasa x selesa. x da niat pun tau....huhuhu emm. rasa nya elok buat in point form lah. senang nak update...=))

1. raya kali ni xbeslah. sebab rase diri dah tua nak raya2 sakan ni...huhuhu tapi dapat gak duit raya. amountnya dirahsiakan hihihi

2. assignments plus midterms plus tah-hape-hape keje banyak yang nak diselesaikan. boring betul. merosakkan mood yang dah sedia xda untuk beraya.3. my nephew yang dah setahun lebih dah boleh membebel mengalahkan acik dia okay. sangat excited layan dia bercakap n membebel even kita x paham..hehehe here he is....



4. oh2. sempat jugak pergi baraan sekolah. ramai kawan-kawan yang dah abes belajar n dah kerja. huh. study kat uia ni memang lebih lama dari u lain..kalau kawin dulu ni dah ada anak 4, 5 orang. ye betul, sy x tipu..=ppp


best raya best friends

5. sekarang tengah mengajar hati agar menerima apa yang telah disediakan oleh tuhan untuk kita. n jangan terlalu berharap pada sesuatu yang jauh dari jangkauan...

6. jatuh hati pada cerita 'ayat-ayat cinta'. even cerita ni dah lame tapi baru dapat tengok. dulu sangat skeptikal pada cerita indonesia tapi sekarang x lagi gara-gara cerita cinta ni.

7. im learning a new thing which is..."cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki itu dua perkara yang berbeza" emm...sort of.



ho laa....banyak lagi nak update. tapi xleh nak share kat sini sangat. nanti-nanti lah yeeee..=))


xoxoxoxo

Friday, August 27, 2010

emosi

aaahh~!. minggu ni semua benda yang diharap tak satu pun yang jadi.
atau sy yang terlalu beremosi.

rasa nak jerit dekat orang tu yang sy ada di sini dan akan terus menanti.
rasa nak upah detektif suruh dia cari kunci bilik yang hilang tah kemane.
rasa nak ikat diri sendiri dan duduk diam-diam agar terus study untuk exam nanti.

now you know my pathetic issues.
tak la teruk mane.
kalau nak dibandingkan dengan masalah orang lain.
tapi sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan.
sy jadi terlalu beremosi.

Friday, August 20, 2010

syukur

Alhamdulillah.....
that is all i can say at this moment...
Allah finally answered my prayer.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

sy memang...



tadi dah dapat jumpe orang yang sy suka

hanya Allah yang tahu

hati berdebar-debar
tangan menggeletar
tah ape-ape perkataan keluar dari mulut ni

mesti dia ingat sy sombong
tak. sy bukan sombong tapi malu
yes. percayalah.

sy memang pemalu orang nya
sy memang cepat gelabah

bila dah macam tu mulalah gelak-gelak tak bertempat

memang nak tengok muka dia lama-lama
tapi sy malu
memang nak cakap banyak-banyak dengan dia
tapi saya malu

yes. sy mengaku sy suka dia
tp suka seseorang x bermakna kita akan dapat orang tu
sy tau. sy sedar.
sebab tu lah sy hanya mampu

rindu dari jauh
suka dari jauh

sebab sy perempuan ok...
dan sy bukan jenis yang cepat mesra dengan orang
lagi-lagi orang yang bergelar lelaki
lelaki yang sy suka pula tu

alamak....tak tido malam lah lepas ni =)
xoxo selalu

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

he is a he



entry kali ni khas untuk kawan sy

kenapa sy dgn susah payah nye tulis entry ni?
sebab dia sangat special
pecaya tak kalau sy cakap sy tak penah jumpa dia ni?
yep. kami berhubung dengan telefon n ym je...
tapi dalam banyak2 kawan sy dia yang paling sy sayang
kawan dari kami umur 17 tahun
kawan paling lama yang penah sy ada
sampai sekarang...
maksud kawan di sini ialah yang selalu berhubung dan bukan berperangai kawan makan kawan ye....

even penah terputus hubungan
somehow we managed to contact back
susah senang, tergolek terbalik sy dia sentiasa ada
okay. tak la selalu.
tapi dia seorang yang

a good listener
a good thinker
a good commenter
a good motivator

dan sy pecaya he can be a good lover too
but to someone else okay. not me.
masa sy break up (2 kali dah)
dia sentiasa ada
menemani sy walaupun sy tau dia ada byk lagi keje lain

kami juga mempunyai impian yang sama
that is kerja di melaka
yes. doakan ye. sy sgt suka melaka.
it feels hommy and oldschool at the same time.

okay...
agaknye tu je lah kot.



true friends are hard to find...but there is one
xoxo

note: entry asal nak guna ganti nama 'aku'...tp mcm kasar sgt pulak...hehehe

..die..

i will be literally dead this Thursday...
have a:

proposal on human relations
proposal on public relations
works on computer applications
presentation on English language for occupational purposes


to be submitted!!!

current mood: hibernasi

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Ramadhan & graduation day =)

this will be my last Ramadhan in UIA...
and this is also my first Ramadhan as a single lady and im quite okay with it..=)
Alhamdulillah...
there is no word can describe how i am thankful to God for this opportunity...
and this strength to forgive and forget all those things...
the feelings of sadness and others were all mixed up...
i wonder if i can really appreciate this holly month next time when i was no longer be the UIA's student..
huhu..
and..
oh2...the graduation list was already out and i am so happy to see my friend's names stated over there...
excited lah! hihi...but at the same time i am sooo jealous of u guys...haha
i have to wait one more year to have my own graduation day...
em i wonder how i will look like at that time...
skinny? married? 'healthy'? or what???
hihihi...i just have to wait and see..

see people...one year is a long period of time...
you will never guess what will happened to you..
yes. we plan. but only God will decide it for us...
whatever it is...i hope i can cope with it...aamiin~

Congratulations to all my friends for your precious moment this 3 Oct... =)


xoxoxo

Monday, August 2, 2010

caution: jgn baca jika sudah bosan dgn kisah cinta sy

today i have this loooong conversation with my ex.
i ask him why he left me after 3 years we had been together.
dia cakap dia x leh nak cintakan sy. dia cuma sayang je.
dia juga salahkan kawan sy yg kenalkan kami.
duh. it really did open my eyes lah...
sedih sangat tapi berjaya juga untuk tidak mengalirkan air mata.
he told me to back off. jangan telefon dia lagi.
(nak wat camne. sy memang rindukan dia)
what a pathetic i have become....

tapi bila pikir2 balik bagus juge die wat gitu.
ini bikin hati gue tambah kuat.
percaya yang Allah dah aturkan yang terbaik..
dan dia bukanlah yang terbaik untuk sy.
sekarang cuma perlu tunggu dengan penuh sabar...

xoxoxo

Friday, July 30, 2010

excuses

sorry people...
im very busy socializing. i have no time to update my own blog.
im very busy to push myself doing the assignment(s) (i havent move an inch). i have no time to stalk other people blogs'.
im very much busy to rebuild myself back. i have no time to mind other people businesses (ok. scratch that part because i lied)
im very much hoping that this one person is finally realize that I AM EXIST. i have no time in focusing ONLY to myself (deym u)

i need to slap my own face.
or anyone??

Thursday, July 22, 2010

tak tipu, tak boleh

saya tak tipu. saya memang rindu dia. even sekarang ada orang try cucuk jarum. tapi saya tak boleh. saya masih rindukan dia. tolong. sapa2. pergi jauh2 dari saya. sebab saya tak boleh.


aiseh. lagu2 kat radio ni tak membantu langsung lah..!

malas

oho. i really2 hate that word right now. because that is what i am.
malas nak siap kan keje. malas nak prepare presentation (haih. kejap lagi ni presentation nye!)
malas tu malas ni. emm makan pun tak berapa nak lalu (me? not eating? what the...)
nak update blog ni pun malas juga.
yang rajin nye ape?
read a story book currently borrow it from my friend.
its very good that makes me just want to curl under my comfort blanket and berhibernasi untuk seminggu lagi
currently im in the mood of enjoying my single life.
sebab tula jadi malas kot.
aduh. need to stop this stupid behavior or else..

xoxo

Thursday, July 15, 2010

mood macam2

sekarang masih lagi dalam mood porak peranda.
nak ke tak nak...nak ke tak nak...tu je dalam otak ni.
semak betul. emm..memang padan la muka.
tak pandai lagi nak wat keputusan yang mementingkan diri sendiri.
rase2 nye akan buat juga lepas ni setelah beberapa abad terseksa
(ini mengikut kata2 kawan saya)....sebab diri sendiri yang tak nak mengaku dan mengambil langkah drastik untuk keutamaan diri sendiri.
ini kalau dah kawin n kena seksa dgn laki sendiri akan berkemungkinan menjadi wanita2 yang tak nak melepaskan diri sendiri dari semua itu.
aduh. parah ni.

emm mood lain.
sgt hepi setakat ni bile da stat belajar balik.
lagi2 clas LE 4500 (English course)..hihi sgt best lecturer nye.
x sia2 melepaskan lec fav lagi satu untuk amik section yang ni.
n...yang lain2 pun best juga.
even ade lec yang ciap bawak resit compound dalam class.
aiseh...strict sungguh.
huhu...ape nak wat. its his class. (oppsss...did i just say 'he')...hahaha

ok lah. nanti bila da decide betul2 keputusan yang patut diambil akan ada la entry tersebut.
just wait k....lots of things to reconsider.

xoxo

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

.a perfect boyfriend.

i am strongly believe in patience is part of our iman. God already created a path for us. created a scene for us to be strong and not to forget Him. i AM strongly believe in this kind of situation. actually lately, my bf and i always clash in our mutual agreement. it is all about him being so selfish and stingy while me being so childish and not so understanding gf.

i wish i can be more patient

i wish i can be more understanding

i wish i can be a perfect gf

but NO. i cant. i wont. i dont.
because i am not near to the perfection.

i didnt have a fairytale love story. i wish i have but no...i am no longer believe in fairytale. its all crap for me. a perfect bf does come with a perfect price. thats what i do believe. i dont know if u guys believe that but i dont care.
i cry a lot because of my stupid love story. i am not strong enough to end all of this. i do love him no matter what he did to me. once again..what a pathetic i have become.

Dear God...can you please gave me a perfect bf already??

nah...it will be way tooooo easy dont you think?? (ahaa)


xoxo

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

semangat study

pagi tadi start class. first class for this semester actually sebab semalam still lagi huru-hara. perasaan? excited, berkobar2, semangat dan macam2 lagi. biasela baru start kan. but hopefully this feeling will last until the end of this final semester.

emm bila dah mula belajar ni rase macam rindu sangat kat uia ni. last sunday bila first masuk main gate tu x rasa ape pun...cume penat drive 2 n half hours. ciap hampir nak accident lak tu. hari ni je baru terase rindu when almost 3months x datang uia (kinda).

yep. last sem bile dengar ramai kawan2 yang dah abes study and already get a job sejujurnye saya rasa sangat jeles. tapi sem ni bila dapat perabot baru, wireless pun seems okay la kat bilik ni (cross my fingers and toes), dah mula belajar balik, pastu ciap dapat buku free kuliyyah bagi (yeah, i am very much likes the freebies..hehe). well, i think i should stop thinking about what a luckiest thing that other people can get instead of me. besides, dr. roziena...my eop lecturer did ask us about what are we planning to do after graduating. yep..many answers from us. but she did mention that we should take a break first. weighing our options. getting marry pun di kira option tau...hehe

emm i believe in rezki ade di mane2. cuma benda tu kene dicari la. if not, x dapat la kan. but like it or not, i have to find a job asap. i mean super asap. i am sick of asking money from my mom and doing nothing. plus, i would like to have my own money so that when i wanna get engaged or etc it should be no problem in buying things. (yeah. thats the true purpose).
hihi

well
lets just see wheres my luck will lead me to. shall we?


xoxo




Sunday, July 11, 2010

update

back to iium.
it feels great.superb. but i miss my mom so damn much.
yep. im a mommy's and you have no right to laugh at it (ahaa)

well, as u may not know, my room was full with the new-purpleish kind of furniture and i am sooooo loving it!
the table get longer, the locker has many rooms and it was the 1st time in my life i didnt know what stuffs should i put into it.
and it has a secret locker inside it that is suitable for my valuable-expensive kind of stuffs.
Dear God...i am so grateful for this. Thank You.
yeay for that!

ok.
last friday. my teeth were free from the braces (or me)
yep. there was no fun about that. no more colorful thingy in my teeth.
it was a crucial process plus now i think that scaling is much more worse than getting your tooth off (correct me if im using a wrong term).
i tell you. it was a nightmare! huhu
and i kinda miss my braces. it was the only thing that i like about my face (i am lying)
though, i will not see it again. but i still have to wear the retainer to make my teeth still and stay.
luckily, it can be take off as it is removable unlike the braces.

and i heard that wearing the braces make your face changed even better.
i dont know. but until now my mommy's friends said that i am getting cuter (not my body but my face okay. and i am confident about that okay)

i love my life. full stop.

xoxo

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

which one..??

found this at one of the Malay newspapers
if it said Malay and a professional who did write it...so no "bahasa rojak" ok??
(mind here...im not a professional...hehe)

supposedly "light, camera, action!"
or "lampu, kamera, aksi!"

aduh people...make up your mind..

holiday

salam..=)
update for my new activity yesterday
jalan2 plus mandimanda di teluk batik
n dinner for last nite was McD set besar punye
hihi
i have a wonderful time with them unfortunately...
tomorrow dah kene balik rumah
emm mengadap bende-tak-gune-yang-sepatutnya-mati-cepat
huhu
plus memikirkan emak yang tercinta yang merindui ku
(bukan syok sendiri ye. she did call me everyday and ask when i will come back home)
emm pity her..

so...just enjoy the pictures and..
you will not see me updating the blog for a week or two after this
because i did not have any access to the internet at my home
plus i will be very busy to prepare my things and so on
because...guess what????
it almost 3 months now and my new aka last sem in uia will start on 12th July
yey!!

(pssst did i tell you my nephew is super gorgeous...haha)

here he is...



auntie yang tgh membebel


his voice all over d sea


one small happy family

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xoxoxo

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

update

rase da lame x update
hari ni malas nk tulis in English lang
sbb mood tgh bermalas2an di rumah akak
smbil melayan nephew yg super gorgeous
hihi
akak kate die super gorgeous sbb time pregnant die minum protein
haha
yeke. emm rase2 nye kalau x minum pun ank akan super gorgeous juge
tp im definitely going to try it someday
well, worth trying
petang ni plan nk gi mandi manda di teluk batik
(rase mcm dah tue untuk berbuat demikian. tp ape ku kesah??)
hehe
n malam nak gi makan McD
well, rase macam nk boikot tapi x mampu nk tolak d resistance
bape bulan dah x mkn
kire boikot juge la kan..hehe

p/s: million congrats to wanie sk for d interview
(even x dapat lagi keje tapi nak congrats juge
=)

xoxoxo

Friday, June 25, 2010

...go away from me

i am desperately need to start my days back in uia
thats the only place where i can exercise and concentrate on my weight loss
(aka to be healthy off course).

okay. it was not an excuse not to do it at my own home
but..believe me.
my mom's cooking is one of my guilty pleasure.


im fat enough to make people think that i am a mother not a teenager.
im fat enough that i have to choose my own picture that makes me look small (aka thin).
im fat enough that seems like my own cloth did not even cooperated with me
(in terms of making my fat stay under it).
im fat enough that makes my own esteem super-duper loooowww.

deymm~~~

the end of my intern days

yesterday i was dying for a piece of cake.
lucky enough i got one. (big grin in my face).
yeah. my colleagues bought it for me because this week is my last week of internship.

its an ice cream cake. yummy!



they spell it wrong!





after this i will have 2 weeks of holiday
and im thinking to go for a jog every morning
(cross both my fingers and toes).


xoxo

drama's project

this is it.
d entry that i promised u.
most of d picture is in my FB site.

it was a nice experience for me.
though it wasnt fortunate for us to win.
this kind of experience i will never get it anywhere.
the bitterness of our effort (more come from my colleague. im just helping her) to teach them and the sweetness of them to do this competition.


and many thanxes for that.

in the light of happiness

yep..these are us

them. (practice...practice...practice)

d coolest us ever.

us


xoxo

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

that WAS i am

writing a blog was not merely just to get famous.
mark my word F.A.M.O.U.S.
yep.
i am a browser-stalker-reader of other people blogs n i know it well enuf...
to say that some people just want to show off their blog to others.

that's what i am in the beginning of my blogging matters.
(freaking-ooover excited)
i even linked my entry at others...(what a pathetic ive become..)
yeah. that WAS me.

now...jeng jeng jeng...
i just dont care if there is a reader or not at my blog.
really just dont care.
i realize that the more you write..in English particularly..
the better person i will be.
conform.

it is not easy to write what you think.
i am that person.
people will not understand what im trying to say.
bcoz my meaning just stuck in somewhere else.
it doesnt come with what i just said.
(did u get it??)

haha.
said enuf.
im not a poetic person.
im not mastering in the language yet. (ive try so-so hard. believe me)
i need to read more book and dwell in it.
to make sure my meaning will come with what im trying to say.

xoxo

Thursday, June 17, 2010

in d mood of directoring

besok nak gi kuantan.
sgt excited (n a bit scarry too).
d students have a drama competition n we've done all d props, costumes bla..bla..bla
in d next entry...
i will let u see d pictures of all d hardworks, sweat n tears(kinda) to u..
it was a hell lot of fun working with them.
i AM really going to miss them after this..

wait ha for d story n d pictures..
^_^

xoxo

Monday, June 14, 2010

keliru

tak maafkan nanti cakap aku Muslim yang tak baik
tak layan nanti cakap aku belagak
tak tegur nanti cakap aku lupe semua jasa baik ko
tak mesej nanti cakap aku lupe kawan
tak dengar masalah ko nanti cakap aku bukan kawan yang baik

kalau maafkan nanti hanya dari luaran je
kalau layan pun sebab terpaksa
kalau tegur pun sekadar hye2 bye2 je
kalau mesej ko lak yang wat2 tak layan
kalau dengar n bagi pendapat nanti ko kate aku tak sokong ko lak

ni yang nak mencaci maki ni

mane satu??

stop it u!

i should stop
this crazzines-stalking-habit.

Friday, June 11, 2010

single and blabbering

single by choice or single because you have to
well if it was me to choose...i pick the first one

(ok thats sooooo not true since i oready got one)
he will totally kill me if he read this entry. literally speaking opkos.

uhuu
ok.
i happened to read this amazing article
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/6/9/nation/20100609093405&sec=nation

frankly speaking..i kinda miss being single
it makes me feel closer to God..
seriously...when you have nothing else in your mind
(including >>> your own bf (or gf), what clothes should you wear for d date, what things you should do to please him (or her), worried if he or she didnt call u or msge u...bla..bla..bla)
you will definitely focusing on your relationship with God..

emm..
actually im not the type of person who can be single for a loooooong time

its hard you know.....
(im a gedik girl who need someone to be my own shoulders to cry on when i have a bad-hectic-not-my-day type of situation)
since i am no longer believe in a bff kinda girlfriend
(this is bcoz of d thing that happened to me in my prev semester in the so called tanah konon suci credited to syafa =D....)
i will get to that one maybe in another entry


plus i didnt have many exes (im not kidding bcoz im not that gojes okey)
so far...i only got one ex
(its a reeeeeally bad experience that makes you just want to terjun di lombong yang berdekatan)

so you can say that most of my life im a single person
and i can say that im good with that and feeling nothing about that
(except when you see a hot-looking-guy pass you and you cannot stop wondering why on earth is hes not with you!...ahaa)

i am strongly believe that Allah will give me the one who is right for me someday
so He just waits and hides him in somewhere-God-forsaken-place
n i think you my friend should just be patience and wait for him to come

it will be one hell of d greatest experience in your life
trust me...bcoz i oredy in that situation
(keep praying that it will linger with me forever)


should stop blabbering now!

xoxoxo ^_^




Thursday, June 10, 2010

padan muke. sape suruh.

disebabkan perangai suke sangat stalk orang.
hati jadi parah. sebab jeles. dengan kawan2 yang sudah bekerja dan sebagai nya.
dan mereka bahagia dengan keadaan itu.
aku pula?
nauzubillah~
memang xbley elak perasaan sebegini.
tambah pule tengah praktikal sekarang.
makin bersemangat nak kerja..kerja..kerja...
tak nak belajar dah!
hati nak kerja. nak duit. nak kawin.
(banyak cantek muke hang)
maknanya kene segera kembali kepada suasana belajar.
i mean..cepat CEPAT
sebelum hati jadi lagi parah..

berenti berleter

xoxo


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

shawl etc

cantek2 fesyen tudung zaman sekarang

tu pun masih ramai lagi yang agak susah nak pakai tudung
a.k.a tutup aurat
memang x leh paksa...tapi bila dah pakai lame2 akan suka juge
ooops... i think i need to stop now before yall think aku nak bagi ceramah lak)

hehe...nothing against you people. its up to you ok.
kubur masing2..^_^


kadang-kadang teringin juga nak pakai inner syria, shawl etc
yang sangat banyak untuk di shopping sekarang
tapi rase macam tak sesuai je
haha...
agaknya sampai ke tua la fesyen pakaian macam ni je...
hihi

well...i guess i NEED to try them someday..somehow...someyear..
haha

enuf said

xoxo

Friday, June 4, 2010

month of everything

yiehaa...!!
its june oready
yeah im a liiittle bit late since its 4th june today
wateva. im still
over-freaking-excited.

im turning 23 next monday

plus my bearybear (i just invented this name..wink2) will be in his 24 this 29th
(yeah. we are in the same month. how cool is that?)

plus my super duper lovely sista will be in her 26 this 23rd

plus my late father supposedly in his 55 this 17th
(im really REALLY miss him...so deym much)

emm ok move on.

yeah. u can say that my family is so much into this month
since most of us was born in june.

im lucky enough to have them in my life
thanxes to Allah...

lots of kisses and xxxxxxx




Thursday, May 27, 2010

lelaki tak guna

kalau anda seorang yang:

suka menyeksa kaum wanita
(note here. physical n emotional count.)

masih mengharapkan wife anda bayar bila makan diluar

tak solat dan takde perasaan malu (siap perli orang lain bila xbuat...(wat d heck??)

tak kisah jika tak bekerja kerana ada orang lain boleh tanggung (lelaki sebegini paling ****)


kalau hidup pun x mendatangkan faedah pada orang lain


=anda patut mati awal.

Monday, May 24, 2010

i am A FORGOTER

i need to constantly remind myself about the purpose of my life
(here we go again)

realize that i am far away from the God's look after list

totally scare the h*** out of me

it is truely my fault

because i am barely remember Him as my personal look afterer

Dear God...please help me not to ever forget about You

in a way that i can accept it (i know You will)

xoxo

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I AM a dreamerrrrrrr (grrrrrr)

wishlist

for next sem aka my last sem in uia

---never give up in my study (ok. This one is a must…since obviously it will be my LAST sem here)

---go for a trip(s) (bird park KL is what I have in my mind…thanx to fifa ;)



---have a freaking awesome picnic with my gfs n bf (definitely, since it was my needy that seems never happen in previous2 sem)
---any tasik @ sungai also can but not tasik uia okay…

---jogging at a place beside uia (cross my fingers for this to happen)

---exercises like no more tomorrow (pump up those muscles babe)

---start to make some money.

(I AM sooooo sick of asking money from my lovely mother…shame on me.
Maybe doing a car rent business?? Or else? I have no idea…)

---try to forgive people sincerely (mesti, mesti, mesti)

Yokey…nanti akan diberangan kan lagi.

xoxo

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Week of farewell

Uhuu.
It comes down to my last week of teaching the students.

Next week will be their study week and we are not allowed to make any classes.
(this is what we call as the study WEEK….undoubtedly different with uia where it was study DAYS not WEEK)

Gosh. Time moves fast enough I cant even remember what it feels like to be a teacher.
(well…sort off)

Lots of goodbyes-sorries-goodlucks kind of speech for us.

Lots of questions… ‘miss…do you have a facebook?” ‘miss…can I take a picture with you?”

If you have these…my advice would be…’layankan saje…’ :)

I did learn something from them and I really-really hope they did learn something from me.

I wonder….

Emm overall…it was not such a bad experience for me.

Since I did enjoy my precious time with them.

If YOU happened to read this my dear students…
THANK YOU for all of your behaviors…
THANK YOU for being who you really are…
Because trust me…you are one of a kind that will last eternally in my life.

lots of xoxo for you

Monday, May 17, 2010

bukan nak perasan

Tapi ni nak gosip sikit

Aku rase ade orang cute stalk akula.

Hint:

Nampak je mesti senyum memanjang.

(diela, aku cover2 je)

Selalu perasan die cam kejar aku bila baru datang opis or nak balik opis.

(if terserempak kat mane2)

Die intai aku naik kete ape.

(kantoi)

Die sedaye upaye nak jalan same aku. Tapi xsempat sebab aku suke jalan laju.

(ini gara-gara selalu lambat pergi kelas)

Ape ini. Aish~~

xoxo

Friday, May 14, 2010

mahallah bulletin and madam

last week one of my MRC members told me to give a kata-kata hikmah for our mahallah bulletin.

i gave her this sentence "the one that you can only trust is yourself"
okay, sort of. bcoz i cant remember the exact words.

well. my principal aka madam rejected it.
d reason was.. she said its kinda selfish-self-centered-whatsoever word that associated with it.

emm. really guys???
i guess so.

yep. the sentence occured to my mind when i remind back all things that happened to my life in the previous semester.

yep. i guess i have to think back a new kata-kata hikmah that is less selfish-self-centered-whatsoever word that associated with it aka dependable type of sentence.

so, i came out with this words... "you need others to help you to be a better person"

i wonder hows that sounds...

till then.

xoxo