macam tak caya

dapat nephew baru
dapat keja Astro
dapat bagi duit dekat mak hasil penat lelah sendiri
dapat experiences baru yang really2 teach me about this life yang tak penah happened before
dapat kena puji dengan bos company sekarang ni (soon to be ex) sampai sekarang masih tak caya lah diri ni sehebat itu
dapat bersyukur dengan Allah tiap2 hari sebab bagi rezeki yang tak putus2 hadir....Alhamdulillah

xoxoxo

planning

aiyak. bersawang dah blog ni kan. super busy like a bee mehhh. xsempat nak berceloteh kat sini. tak tau nak start cita yang mana satu dulu...ehmm okay. mentang2 tahun ni tahun rabbit. rasa diri bertuah bila all my plans dipermudahkan oleh Allah...Alhamdulillah.

yep. paling good news sekali (I hope so)...dapat keja at Astro as a presentation editor. dulu memang berangan nak jadi editor..tapi tak layak sebab masih belum boleh tulis in English language with zero mistake. last2 dapat keja yang associated dengan edit2 ni tapi edit program lah. Allah works in His own way kan...em tp tak tau lah macam mana keja ni...but it sounds interesting and I have to start all over againlah. belaja lagi, wat silap lagi, deal dengan bos baru lagi...huhuhu harap2 hati and semangat ni akan terus kuat.

ehmm2. sudah plan something after convo and next year punya agenda. okay. ni betul2 kena DIET and EXERCISE bagi kurus siket. seriously...tak nak lah pakai cantik2 tapi nampak spare sana sini. even dia tak kesah pun tapi I tetap kesah okay. once in my life time. kena kuat siket semangat kali ni nak buang siket lemak2 ni.

hooo...house hunting ni memang stress dan memenatkan. rasa nak give up je tapi sian lak kat member. huhu bla agak nya akan muncul rumah sewa yang betul2 suits us. have to just keep looking...just keep looking..

xoxoxo

new year

good bye 2010 and helloooo 2011...
3 more days people...3 more days we are heading out to a brand new year
every single day will be our new and kinda last day for us.
what a bless year for me.
well i can say that 2010 was a really-really good year for me.
here are the reasons why::

--finished my degree
--get a job
--break up with my 3 years boyfriended
--getting to know someone and finally be my new sweetheart =))
--get rid of some friends who keep giving me this kind of pain in the...ehmm2
--get new best friend(s)
so on and so forth..

well...if you ask me about my new resolutions. they have to be these::

-contribute something to my mom. something here means money off course...or anything else
-have a better relationship with God
-improve my performance at work
-i have to make sure no more pain in my love-hate relationship. maybe get engaged..perhaps! haha but definitely not married...yet (gosh...if U were reading this. just ignore it okay!)
-lose some weight for my convo...urgh...again and again huh?
-be healthy and safe throughout the year

that will be all...for now

xoxoxo

update2

im as busy as a bee.
uhuh...already 2 weeks working in my new and first ever working place.
lots a, tans a, many2 works to do.
this is why i like to work with the private sector first.
okay...no heart feeling for those who work at the gov.
it just that talking from my experience...most of the 8 hours working time...only 4/5/6 of them i did actually really working while in the gov.
haha...i dont know. maybe it was just me who did that.
ehmm2 quick update:

-already received a superb news. he mentioned his feeling out loud. me off course did it too...=))

-im trying to adjust my new life. lot of things to discover and consider. especially trying to keep myself motivated in each and every single day. one solution if you ask me???
----try to cuci mata or enjoying the 'view' in the early morning. either in the train, bus, lift, food court or etc...hehehe its really refreshing!!

-ohoooooi...soon enough my lemak will kill me. duh...im trying to eat less at noon and doing whatever diet you called them. but i cant help eating when it comes to night. so how eh??

-i am so fortunate to have colleagues that are super cool n nice. for the time being la...i dont know in the future. or maybe it was just me who feels that way. emm speak of the devil.

-currently im trying to learn how to pick up the office calls correctly. duh...sape la yang invented telefon mcm ni. for a human who was not a technology savvy like me..its kinda hard dowh. @_@


xoxoxo

so so...

my heart is blooming like a million roses in the forbidden space

sounds poetic so so...but this is what i really am feel right now
despite the posts in the FB by my friends who keep reminding me about the final exam result that will be out this coming Monday...
i may pass or may not...either one i have to accept it rite??
been praying hard for the pass few months for God to pass me even if it was not with a flying color

thanks to God i have something to distract me from thinking about that too often
(naaah im totally lying!)
either way...being in love surely does make me more closer to Him.


xoxoxoxo

ok ape...

da pegi 4 interviews kerja
yang dua tak dapat sebab time tu tak study lagi language betul2
nak make sure flawless and no grammar mistakes time write something
last2 tulis tah ape benda
yang lagi satu ni tak dapat juga sebab tak de basic politic katenye
sebab tak baca malaysian insider, malaysia kini dan sewaktu dengan nya
yelah. aku memang tak terpikir nak baca web-web yang begitu
selama ni baca NST, the Star
ok ape..dari aku baca Utusan
alah..dah memang tak de rezeki kan
bacalah ape pun...kalau dah tak tersurat itu kerja aku
memang tak kan dapat lah
oh2 ada lagi satu nak tunggu
tapi pun rase macam tak dapat
bukan pikir negatif
tapi slalu hint-hint yang hati bagi tak kan menipu kan?

stress oooiiii

kalau nak tengok muka orang tengah stress tengok la muka aku
ye. sekarang tengah dalam musim mencari keja
aka musim berkobar-kobar semangat nak keja
tapi tak de rezeki lagi
alahai pencari penganggur yang setia
sila lah tengok muka kesian aku ni dan ambil aku menjadi pekerja kamu
hahaha
desperate sungguh
almaklumlah...aku bukan jenis yang suka duduk-duduk saja tanpa ada kerja yang nak dibuat
janji...sape-sape yang ambil aku bekerja mesti untung
sebab aku memang gila bekerja
sebab aku tak suka ponteng-ponteng kerja ni
tak caya sila tanya tempat aku praktikal hari tu
sehari pun tak penah ponteng
dah la memang tak dapat elaun
hah
tak ke employee of the month gitu

just a reminder...please

if you are a full time woman or only a half time woman
as long as you still have the things which make you a woman
either one...you still have to take charge of your own life

this is as the result of having to read so many news directing our attention towards the issue of the woman being kicked, stabbed, cheated and only God knows what more by the man
nothing feminist, emotional here but lets face it people
its on the news and sure its a fact

I spent one week in KL and just came back from there
get to spend more than 6hours of driving from banting to uia to bukit jalil then back to hometown with my mom
we did a really an eye opener discussion...okay sort of

its about a thing that we never imagine can happen to a woman particularly
its about a woman will always be the victim of the most crucial thing that a man can do
its about a woman should really2 be intelligent for the kids and own sake
its about 'jodoh itu Allah yang tentukan' whether we like it or not

and the most interesting part was...
its about my own life
what should I do after this
when should I further my study
who is my boyfriend for the time being
(okay...I already made this one promise that i should never get married until she retired
and thatttt should give me one year of being a single woman...hehehe
but plus2 if i didnt yet find my soul mate)
emm2...

calling for all women out there....just dont make yourself as the punch bag for those jerks
you deserve much better than that..


xoxoxo

interviews

how often did u update ur blog?
oho...one of the questions been asked by the interviewer.
i said twice a week...is it true?
well recently...i guess so.
had faced 2 times interview sessions with different companies sure did give me a bunch of new experiences.
what should i do right now is only keep praying for the help of Allah to get one or maybe both of the jobs..
i dont know...at the end of the day...it depends on my luck and rezeki...kan..

xoxoxoxo

manners

seriously people....we should really learn manners lah nowadays...
how many times have i encountered people who doesnt know how to be courteous with others

who is speaking on the phone while driving...
who is smoking at the zone of 'no smoking'...hello people...are you blind or just simply stupid enough to ignore it??
who is answering phone with the i'm-the-boss-who-is-always-correct attitude...duh this one is surely annoyed me most
who doesnt know how to shut-the-fcuk-up when seeing me gaining my weight....urgh...mentaliti orang zaman sekarang...
and many more...

yeah. i guess we should learn how to deal with those kind of species instead...aite??

once again...how to spell L.O.V.E

I am in love...

thank you...Allah for You are always by my side and answering all my prayers
thank you...whoever you are for sometimes does making my day
thank you...whoever you are for always praying for my luck to finally begin
thank you...whoever you are for making me as your absolute stalker
@_@


xoxoxoxo

do(s) and dont(s)

after surviving do(s) and dont(s) in IIUM...it was finally my graduation moment.
na ah...it was kinda late to mention it here but i had been through super-hectic-day with my lovely friends and love one creating our precious memories before we pursue our own journey...

really2 hope to get a job super fast and currently i AM scrabbling, dwelling, remembering, practicing and bla...bla...bla...my grammar skill so that i will past a test (more to a job test) next week...

please pray for my success to get this job because for me it was one of the jobs that will make me not to forget my duty as a servant plus....well i already get used to it in IIUM and i was really2 like praying that this comfort zone will not absolutely vanished when i get started to work...
so u get what i mean right? em2...hope so

naaaah...i will not spell it out until it was being confirmed 100% i get it...so just wait okay...=)

pep talk

despite me being surrounded by people who keep giving you this kind of pain in the ass.
i am happy to announce that my life is getting better and better.
everything started to settle down and some kind of helping you in a way that i can never imagine.
thank you Allah for not letting me off by your side.
in order to not really dwell into the most crucial and bad thing that certain people can do to you.
you have to like think over all the good thing indeed.
many things that can we hold on to.
for me??
well i can say those are....
-my unique love life.
-my precious family.
-my beautiful-variety circle of friends.

i am pretty sure you have your own too.
hold on to it babe.
there is nothing will ever compared to them.


xoxoxo

alololololo~~

alah. lame x update blog ni kan kan kan....
huhu
klu blog ni bf sy..da kena tgl dah...
klu blog ni suami sy...confirm da kena cerai dah...

it just that...
to many things to handle
since this is my last semester in uia...cross my fingers!
and many things happened smpai x tau mane satu nak update dulu

one thing for sure..
i still love u my blog...
@_@

1st thing 1st
hari tu accident
time2 raya...sibuk nak gi open house orang
huh...one of raya days yang i will never forget...eva!

2nd thing 2nd
da decide nak make my love life change a little bit
ha yang ni x leh nak bg tau lebih2
dah confirm nanti i will let you guys know ^_^

3rd thing 3rd
exam lagi 2 weeks
overwhelmed...sebb this will be my last freacking exams in uia
insya Allah....please pray for me okay

4th thing 4th
da dekat 30 applications on jobs
x de update or call for interview
kecewa?? mestilah...
but i know...God wants to show me something...
He prepares me on something else..
i believe in Him...
ade nanti ade lah kan...

emm....xde mood nak tulis panjang lebar bagai
my lack of interest to write got nothing to do with you
cuma mood for procastinate masih lagi bermaharajalela
ecewah!

xoxoxo

anything is everything

alamak. dah lama sangat biar blog ni bersarang. maaf eh my readers. sangat-sangat-sangat sibuk sekarang ni. dengan raya nya...lagi-lagi ada anak buah kat rumah sekarang ni. sangat sibuk melayan dia. ni baru seorang. manja nya melebih-lebih. yelah. im the only acik yang suka melayan dia....hihihi rasanya lum terlambat nak ucap selamat hari raya. nak minta maaf kalau-kalau my writing ada yang buat anda semua rasa x selesa. x da niat pun tau....huhuhu emm. rasa nya elok buat in point form lah. senang nak update...=))

1. raya kali ni xbeslah. sebab rase diri dah tua nak raya2 sakan ni...huhuhu tapi dapat gak duit raya. amountnya dirahsiakan hihihi

2. assignments plus midterms plus tah-hape-hape keje banyak yang nak diselesaikan. boring betul. merosakkan mood yang dah sedia xda untuk beraya.3. my nephew yang dah setahun lebih dah boleh membebel mengalahkan acik dia okay. sangat excited layan dia bercakap n membebel even kita x paham..hehehe here he is....



4. oh2. sempat jugak pergi baraan sekolah. ramai kawan-kawan yang dah abes belajar n dah kerja. huh. study kat uia ni memang lebih lama dari u lain..kalau kawin dulu ni dah ada anak 4, 5 orang. ye betul, sy x tipu..=ppp

best raya best friends

5. sekarang tengah mengajar hati agar menerima apa yang telah disediakan oleh tuhan untuk kita. n jangan terlalu berharap pada sesuatu yang jauh dari jangkauan...

6. jatuh hati pada cerita 'ayat-ayat cinta'. even cerita ni dah lame tapi baru dapat tengok. dulu sangat skeptikal pada cerita indonesia tapi sekarang x lagi gara-gara cerita cinta ni.

7. im learning a new thing which is..."cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki itu dua perkara yang berbeza" emm...sort of.



ho laa....banyak lagi nak update. tapi xleh nak share kat sini sangat. nanti-nanti lah yeeee..=))


xoxoxoxo

emosi

aaahh~!. minggu ni semua benda yang diharap tak satu pun yang jadi.
atau sy yang terlalu beremosi.

rasa nak jerit dekat orang tu yang sy ada di sini dan akan terus menanti.
rasa nak upah detektif suruh dia cari kunci bilik yang hilang tah kemane.
rasa nak ikat diri sendiri dan duduk diam-diam agar terus study untuk exam nanti.

now you know my pathetic issues.
tak la teruk mane.
kalau nak dibandingkan dengan masalah orang lain.
tapi sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan.
sy jadi terlalu beremosi.

syukur

Alhamdulillah.....
that is all i can say at this moment...
Allah finally answered my prayer.

sy memang...

tadi dah dapat jumpe orang yang sy suka
hanya Allah yang tahu

hati berdebar-debar
tangan menggeletar
tah ape-ape perkataan keluar dari mulut ni

mesti dia ingat sy sombong
tak. sy bukan sombong tapi malu
yes. percayalah.

sy memang pemalu orang nya
sy memang cepat gelabah

bila dah macam tu mulalah gelak-gelak tak bertempat

memang nak tengok muka dia lama-lama
tapi sy malu
memang nak cakap banyak-banyak dengan dia
tapi saya malu

yes. sy mengaku sy suka dia
tp suka seseorang x bermakna kita akan dapat orang tu
sy tau. sy sedar.
sebab tu lah sy hanya mampu

rindu dari jauh
suka dari jauh

sebab sy perempuan ok...
dan sy bukan jenis yang cepat mesra dengan orang
lagi-lagi orang yang bergelar lelaki
lelaki yang sy suka pula tu

alamak....tak tido malam lah lepas ni =)
xoxo selalu

he is a he

entry kali ni khas untuk kawan sy
kenapa sy dgn susah payah nye tulis entry ni?
sebab dia sangat special
pecaya tak kalau sy cakap sy tak penah jumpa dia ni?
yep. kami berhubung dengan telefon n ym je...
tapi dalam banyak2 kawan sy dia yang paling sy sayang
kawan dari kami umur 17 tahun
kawan paling lama yang penah sy ada
sampai sekarang...
maksud kawan di sini ialah yang selalu berhubung dan bukan berperangai kawan makan kawan ye....

even penah terputus hubungan
somehow we managed to contact back
susah senang, tergolek terbalik sy dia sentiasa ada
okay. tak la selalu.
tapi dia seorang yang

a good listener
a good thinker
a good commenter
a good motivator

dan sy pecaya he can be a good lover too
but to someone else okay. not me.
masa sy break up (2 kali dah)
dia sentiasa ada
menemani sy walaupun sy tau dia ada byk lagi keje lain

kami juga mempunyai impian yang sama
that is kerja di melaka
yes. doakan ye. sy sgt suka melaka.
it feels hommy and oldschool at the same time.

okay...
agaknye tu je lah kot.

true friends are hard to find...but there is one

xoxo

note: entry asal nak guna ganti nama 'aku'...tp mcm kasar sgt pulak...hehehe

..die..

i will be literally dead this Thursday...
have a:

proposal on human relations
proposal on public relations
works on computer applications
presentation on English language for occupational purposes

to be submitted!!!

current mood: hibernasi